Adult Onset Atheist

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Misery Loves a Parade!

The Utah Pride Festival starts next weekend (June 3rd), and the crowning activity is the parade. For years the Atheist of Utah have marched in the parade to support resiliency in the face of religious persecution of people simply because of who they love. This year will be no different except that my Mom and her Significant Other will be out in Salt Lake City from Washington DC to march with the AoU; I do hope there are enough T-shirts.

If not for the persecution and hate the Utah Pride Festival would just be some great big celebration of love, and I wager very few people would be interested in it. This is because the indignant declaration that “You Can’t Tell Me Who I Can Love” is much more motivating than the pathetic “who can I love?” that is at the core of many people’s love experiences. Supporting someone’s right to love is something I can march for; illuminating the distances between attractive strangers is something that makes me want to sit down and mope.

This year’s festival’s theme is

“We Are Pride”

This conjures up images of false equivalency. A few years ago a group called Mormons Building Bridges marched at the front of the parade. Their very name suggested an acceptance whose absence had hurt many emerging LGBTQ youth. AoU was someplace towards the back as they just accept people without it ever being something new. The bridges that MBB were designing led to nowhere. Recently the LDS church has placed additional requirements for salvation on children who might have a parent who is LGBTQ.  MBB will probably not be at the front this year.

It is at this point in the discussion that most Atheists ask: “why not just leave the gall-darned church?” I don’t really know why.

There is a beautiful world outside your closet, and believing that a magic sky dude is behind it does not make it any more wonderful; it actually takes it down a notch or two.

The theme does work for me in a backhanded sort of way. Instead of talking about love it just mentions “PRIDE” and “WE”, and it could mean anything. I am not in the mood for a love slogan like 2014’s “Love Equals Love”, or 2011’s theme: “Live, Love, Pride”. If I was creating a “love”-based theme today it might be something like:

“This probably won’t end well”
Or

“Good Luck With That”

But that is my own crap. I should be happy for all the people who are exploring newfound or established pleasures in the company of their soulmates… including my all my exes who have landed with people more suited to their countenance. Part of me wants to send messages to their current paramours telling them that they were called a “pot-bellied fetal alcohol syndrome troglodyte” or “Ms Jabba the Hutt” before they became the moon and the stars.  Of course the repression of their former negative opinions would just be a convincing demonstration of the depth of their new love.  I can’t go back beyond the last two since I was married to one for 22 years and time has erased the sting from older breakups.

The Pride Parade will be full of people who are feeling some sting of lost love; just like any gathering of humans. We will see each other and know. We are each that type of pride that drags us out of our humiliation and sets us marching. I would like to be pride.

I plan on making a sign that might look like this depending on the colors I can find. Right now I have some pastel Martha Stewart paint samples I can use:



My miserable status has attracted some like-miserable individuals. I think we marvel at the stupidity that got each of us into a similar situation. I know I feel somewhat superior when I listen to these losers, and I can tell they feel the same about talking to me; perhaps more so. I have threatened to make an amalgam of their stories and put it up on this blog as an interview. They are actually ok with the idea, but they haven’t seen what it is I will write…. So …. We shall see…

We did come up with a good slogan for next year:

F**K LOVE

We thought it was ironic, and knew there was no danger in anyone actually listening to us.




Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Made To Penetrate

On December 14th 2014 the CDC released the compiled results from a study of sexual violence it had conducted four years earlier. The numbers illuminated the shocking extent that sexual violence shapes the interaction of people with the society in which we live. For instance, 1.3 million women had experienced being raped in the 12 months prior to the study, and 22 million women reported being raped in their lifetime. This implies that our country has millions of rape victims, and millions of rapists. Almost every person in the United States has probably had to interact with several rapists and rape victims. These data are so large that rape is not an isolatable crime, but a component of our society.

Rape statistics have generally been increasing, and one compelling reason for this is that victims are more likely to talk about being raped as our society begins to see it less and less as a mark of sexual deviance. Victims are not seen as equally culpable except by some of the most regressive of moralists; as victims speak out we see that there are more of them than we had imagined.

One group that has traditionally under-reported being raped is men. The National Intimate Partner and Sexual Violence Survey (NISVS) reported that over one and a half million men reported being raped in their lifetimes.

These data describe a suppurative moral cultural abscess that masquerades as sexual interaction.

In addition to the stats on rape the NISVS includes data on many different forms of sexual violence. From unambiguous physical threats to more subtle forms of coercion. The following is a definition from the NISVS for coercion.

Victim was pressured verbally or through intimidation or misuse of authority to consent or acquiesce to being penetrated. Examples include being worn down by someone who repeatedly asked for sex or showed they were unhappy; feeling pressured by being lied to, or being told promises that were untrue; having someone threaten to end a relationship or spread rumors; and sexual pressure due to someone using their influence or authority (this is not an exhaustive list).


Anyone who has been in a bad relationship would, most likely, have experienced coercion as defined here. Almost 30% of the non-rape sexual violence was coercion for both men and women. The definitions of coercion could be used to categorize so many types of interaction that it is likely many respondents used their own pre-conceived notions of what interaction was coercive in answering. In other words these data may not capture the prevalence of a type of sexual violence but instead simply be some ephemeral number generated by confusion over the definition and the emotional framing of less than ideal sexual encounters.

Of all the interesting numbers from the NISVS there is one that stands out; it is the numbers for “Made to Penetrate” (MtP). MtP is described as an act of sexual violence perpetrated almost exclusively by women against men. The NISVS is the first major study to report the prevalence of this act, and according to it the act is almost as prevalent as rape of females. 1.26 million men were MtP in the preceding 12 months as compared to only 620,000 “Completed Forced Penetration” rapes of women.

Equivalency has been drawn between MtP of men and rape of women. These numbers have been used to present the idea that “more men are raped by women (by calling MtP rape) than women are raped by men”. By this reasoning millions of male victims and female rapists are also staining the fabric of our society. These numbers are huge.

How did they hide? With tens of thousands of professionals interacting with these victims how did such a problem go unnoticed for so long? What special tool was used to uncover this gigantic victim group? Well… The NISVS researchers actually called people at random, and asked them.

These are the questions they asked relating to sexual violence and coercion:

When you were drunk, high, drugged, or passed out and unable to consent, how many people ever…
  • • had vaginal sex with you? By vaginal sex, we mean that {if female: a man or boy put his penis in your vagina} {if male: a woman or girl made you put your penis in her vagina}?
  • • {if male} made you perform anal sex, meaning that they made you put your penis into their anus?
  • • made you receive anal sex, meaning they put their penis into your anus?
  • • made you perform oral sex, meaning that they put their penis in your mouth or made you penetrate their vagina or anus with your mouth?
  • • made you receive oral sex, meaning that they put their mouth on your {if male: penis} {if female: vagina} or anus?

How many people have ever used physical force or threats to physically harm you to make you…
  • • have vaginal sex?
  • • {if male} perform anal sex?
  • • receive anal sex?
  • • make you perform oral sex?
  • • make you receive oral sex?
  • • put their fingers or an object in your {if female: vagina or} anus?
How many people have ever used physical force or threats of physical harm to…
  • • {if male} try to make you have vaginal sex with them, but sex did not happen?
  • • try to have {if female: vaginal} oral, or anal sex with you, but sex did not happen?
How many people have you had vaginal, oral, or anal sex with after they pressured you by…
  • • doing things like telling you lies, making promises about the future they knew were untrue, threatening to end your relationship, or threatening to spread rumors about you?
  • • wearing you down by repeatedly asking for sex, or showing they were unhappy?
  • • using their authority over you, for example, your boss or your teacher?

Because of the desire of the survey authors to detect and report subtle forms of sexual victimization, such as consenting to have sex because your partner says they are unhappy, the report makes it difficult to determine the prevalence of other potentially egregious forms of violence. This is particularly troublesome in the case of the emergent victim class of males that were MtP.

The MtP group has been vocal on social media. There is at least one outspoken advocate, and some online magazines as well as MRA sites on Reddit have anonymously presented stories contributed sporadically that are very similar to those of the advocate. Unfortunately the anonymous collection of anecdote and opinion can only conclusively state that there are maybe a dozen men who suffered harm as the result of something connected to an MtP event. This is woefully inadequate if there indeed is a huge group of male victims waiting to be helped.

It has been years since the NISVS, and there has not been a flood of victims seeking help at outreach centers. The rote explanation for this is that men do not seek help, but a sizeable enough minority of male rape victims seek help that if MtP victims presented themselves at half that rate there would be millions of victims noted.

Could the discovery of the giant group of MtP victims be caused by bad questions? Could these be a "non-victim" victim group; one that does not consider itself victims or experience victim-related symptoms of harm?

The NISVS was conducted in 2010. Surely the last five years have shone some interest on the coercion and MtP statistics the NISVS created?

Regardless of how new data informs our understanding of coercion and MtP there is no hiding from the fact that our country has endemic sexual violence to such an extent that it helps to shape our society into something it should not be.


Thursday, April 28, 2016

The delusional voting block

Almost 11 million people have voted for Donald Trump.  This is millions more than his closest GOP rivals. I can understand this as his last rivals left standing were not satisfactory choices; even compared to him, but there were at least a couple “not-horrific” choices eliminated early on. Jeb Busch even had money; lots of it. There is something going on.

11 million people is a lot of people to believe in something as outrageous as a Trump presidency.

 Of course surveys have shown that:
  • As many as 19 million Americans believe in Unicorns.
  • 114 million Americans believe in UFOs.
  • 144 million Americans believe in Angels.
  • 45 million Americans believe the threat of a Zombie Apocalypse is credible.
  • 80 million Americans believe that the sun revolves around the earth.
  • 38 million Americans believe Bigfoot is wandering abut the Pacific Northwest.

Before you dismiss this belief salad as simply interesting noise it is worthwhile to point out that 64 million Americans believe that President Obama was born someplace outside the US – like Kenya. Donald Trump famously pressured Obama for a detailed copy of his birth certificate, and still “questions” the place of President Obama’s birth.

To put this in perspective the idea is that a single mother living in Hawaii in 1962 could, or would even want to, spend over 60 hours in the air (also refueling 4 times) in order to get to a place with much less developed obstetric care to have her baby, and then do the same trip to get home. The idea is that a woman who was just putting together enough to get by could afford a huge expense like a trip halfway around the world days before she gave birth. The idea is that there was any reason at all to do this. The idea is that the conspiracy needed to do this would overlook how to forge birth record.  In summary the idea is not only incongruous with reality it is incongruous with itself.  It is nuttier than squirrel poo.

Donald trump succeeded in getting less than 20% of the people that believe in this birther nonsense to vote for him, and that was enough to win him the GOP nomination. In other words there are enough people firmly convinced of utter nonsense to sway the election of POTUS.

Truthers are another untapped resource of motivated paranoid voters.
  • 22 million Americans believe that Israel attacked the WTC.
  • 45 million Americans think that their own government was responsible.
  • 80 million Americans “don’t know” who was responsible.

This confusion exists despite the fact that the Al-Qaeda took responsibility, was investigated, and found to be fully responsible. All the attackers were Al-Qaeda, and … well … it is just difficult to imagine how one could decide that it was not Al-Qaeda.

Donald Trump will be able to say something like “I don’t know” in his aggressive form of ignorance that plays well with the paranoid.

Is the delusional-paranoid vote enough to elect a POTUS? In the 2012 election Barak Obama was elected by a sizeable landslide, but only got 65 million votes to Mitt Romney’s 60 million votes. If Trump is able to motivate the delusional voting base he could become president by an even larger landslide.